Okay so Shariffa left last Tuesday and Juliane is leaving tomorrow. I will not cry. I am a big girl. Right? Right.

Nothing big has happened with me lately. And I don't want to begin with problems involving money and other dilemmas. I just work all day then come home to sleep. And I know that some of you people out there do the same so I'm not alone. I hang out with Edgar most of the days that I'm off. Hopefully some of his smartness will rub off on me before school starts. You know, just enough to get me to the holidays. I really need to call people just to see how they're doing. Maybe I should get on that. Not tonight though and not tomorrow. I'm tired. Gute Nacht.

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 So A LOT has happened in the past about..... 2 months. I can't catch you up so condensed-like, but oh well.

I had I guess what you would call a "fall-out" with my mother during spring break. It was AWFUL!!!! I have NEVER! EVER! cried so much for such a long period of time. She accused me of doing something I didn't do and.... I had never felt so helpless in my life. My father told me that if my mother says that I did something wrong, it wouldn't matter if I was innocent or not. Once she has made up her mind on something her word is what goes. He told me I had 3 months to move out. Thank God for friends. I am SOO happy that I am my parent's daughter and not anyone else, I would never want ANY of my friends to feel the way that I did that whole week. No matter what I will be here for anyone who needs me whenever.

the one act play went, well, not so good. I mean the play was fine, but that was the problem. It was just FINE. I really liked the judge though. He was the oldest gay man I had ever seen in real life. He was dressed so spiffy like he actually was on the 'ritz'. He he.

Prom is next week. I'm not that excited. But I am at the same time. My date is a really good friend so I hope we'll have fun. He's who I wanted to go with anyways. I just want to go out there and DANCE! Dance like no one else is there! Dance all my problems away.

Ahhhhh......music is my drug. If I didn't have music I WOULD probably do drugs. Just kidding. or am I?

oh, I got a job. I've been there a little over a month and I really enjoy it. Sometimes it can be pretty  mundane but 'hey!' I'm getting paid for this! The people there are hilarious.

The past week has been not so good. I'm upset at myself. I can't play the piano because I'm always working or sleeping. School is almost over and I'm just such a loser for starting to get this weird knotty feeling, my heart hurts when I think about not seeing any of my friends anymore.

That's almost it. There's more but I don't want to bore you anymore. If you have made it this far you are one heck (I really like that word 'heck' it's half of my last name :) ) of a trooper.  One last thing I want to put out there......

I AM NOT CRAZY. AND BOYS ARE SERIOUSLY WEIRD.

maybe I've got it backwards

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     FAFSA! Calculus! OAP! College! Money/Job! What am I supposed to do? I feel like I really have no one to talk to about all this stuff! I'm going to implode! Ashley I really wish you were here. What am I supposed to do with my life?! Any suggestions? I can't be a nurse, or a teacher, or a doctor.  I love art, music, drama, and focus feature films how are any of these interests going to make me successful in my future?! Am I even good at what I love? I feel so much it hurts! Have you ever just wanted to do what you feel? Have you ever just wanted to be held? Have you ever just wanted the approval of your family? I'm feeling like Elphaba and G'linda right now.

          "What is this feeling so sudden and new?" -g'linda

And these are fictional characters! What am I thinking? I'm Thi. I don't think these things... especially out loud. Now I'm going to end this with a quote from Carlos.

         "Thi...    sometimes I forget that you're a girl."

I NEED to start hanging out with more girls.

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   Hey look at this! I'm updating! Okay this morning I took my SATs, not fun. Atleast I had a room full of friends and some strangers. I like people that I don't know, they are new and interesting. After I got home my dad told me about a message that he had forgotten about until today. It was about a job interview with Bath and Body Works. The message was left on Wednesday and he didn't tell me until SATURDAY! I was so angry. I STILL AM ANGRY! I called the store and still let me in on an interview but I'm not sure that they're going to hire me still. GREAT. still no job. After that I filled out an application to Half Price Books, but the guy who took my application seemed snappy and rude. Employees are sweet and kind when you are looking but once they know you want to work there they suddenly lose the front and are flat out mean. WHY?! But I still want to work there. My ideal job would be to work at a bookstore. Half Price actually but I honestly don't see that happening soon. I talked to Nicholas last night and he was horribly drunk. He is so hard to understand when he slurs. He's one of those,"I LOVE YOU MAN!" drunks. It's frustrating. He's unreliable, frustrating, self-involved. I feel like if I'm with him I'll be losing respect for myself, and I just can't let that happen. Unfortunately, I don't think he'll ever realize this.

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i hate boys

that felt so good to type

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